Day 2 of 30 Day Challenges
The blog series in which I am completing my challenge from 30dayblogchallenge.com!
As well as a self-made challenge inspired by Abraham Hicks in which I self-soothe myself through negative emotion.
At the end of this 30 day journey I intend to be more fully on my life’s path, “all systems go.”
Welcome back, I am ready to go.
Well, almost. I mean, I am ready. Well… It was an interesting day. With plenty of need for self-soothing. I don’t know why it went that way, but it did. Let me share a bit. Then I think I just need to do some self-soothing right here and now with you.
So another day at work. Not too challenging, well-paced, no real complaints.
It was after work that the storm began. I did something a bit more impulsive than usual. I bought a program from a salesman on the phone. Don’t get me wrong, it wasn’t some random thing. I had actually reached out for it. Well I sought some tips, but was not sure how it would go. I did fully expect a sales pitch.
It is only because I am turning a new corner in my life and my expansion, trying bold new things, that I decided to make the quick decision to purchase the offer.
I was not disappointed at first. I was proud of my boldness.
It was later that the buyer’s remorse kicked in.
Without going into the somewhat embarrassing details of what I purchased, I realized quite quickly that it was not what I wanted. A couple books were being shipped to me and I was beginning a course with mentors and help and quizzes. A course that was supposed to improve my life.
I knew as I opened the email with a preview of the first three chapters that it was just what I should have known from the start: not my thing.
It led me down a bit of a rabbit hole, questioning the whole program and the internet mentor who had led me to buy it. The mentor I had recently come to respect greatly for his advice. But now I questioned his validity and all the faith I was beginning to put into him and his teachings.
Being mindful about putting too much faith in another person, who is not God.
Needless to say, I began to self-soothe. Well, with some help from my amazing girlfriend. But it was a slow soothe back to reality. And an awkward conversation with my girlfriend about my sanity. Ahem…
That said, I turned a corner after that. I walked outside for some fresh air and a trip to the store and found myself re-enlivened, re-empowered. Actually, I felt like I moved through a major barrier and felt more empowered than before the purchase.
What did I learn?
I learned that I was still allowing myself to give my power away to others. To let myself believe others were bigger than me. That they knew more, had more, were more worthy than me in some way. And I had to let that go.
I reconnected to my own power. I told myself I do not have to give my power to those salesmen or mentors or anyone, no matter what they may offer. Even if they may be of good value in some way or even very helpful to someone else. It was a reminder that I needed to remain in discernment. That even the best mentor has to be taken with a grain of salt.
So I was empowered again and recentered.
And then the IT trouble hit me once more while I continued the setup of my blog. I won’t go into it but suffice it to say that, along with other things on my mind tonight, it took some extra self-soothing (and yes, some girlfriend soothing, too… we can always accept help) to get back to an even keel.
And that brings me to this post. I am feeling better. But just for kicks, let’s self-soothe together for a minute before we wrap it up.
Be easy. It’s ok. Be calm. I am ok. I am good. I am great. I am a good person. I am doing very well. I am healthy. I am happy. I am blessed. I am supported with all I need. I am supported by all that is around me. I am doing very well. I am happy where I am. I am living my life to the fullest. I am strong. I am fit. I am prosperous. I am getting better.
Everything is ok. Everything is working out for me. Things are going very well. I have nothing to worry about. I am comfortable in my home. I have clothes I love. I have plenty of food. I have a good job. I have an amazing girlfriend. I have wonderful kids in my life. I am blessed in so many ways. I know that all is well in my world. I know that everything is getting better.
I am awesome. I am an awesome person. I am feeling great. I can do anything I set my mind to. I am the thinker of my own thoughts. I am the creator of my own reality. I love the life that I am living. My life is getting better and better and better. Everything is always working out for me.
There are so many exciting things for me to do next. What exciting new thing shall I do first?
So that’s it. That’s the kind of inner dialogue I have when I need to pick myself up. But not just when I am down. When I want to go higher in my mind, too. You can do this, yourself, if you practice. You can claim these things for yourself, in your own way. Start easy, start small, if you wish. Believe it. Then build the momentum.
If you are low, do this to get back to center. If you are centered, do this to go higher. The power of your thoughts and mind have such great impact on how you feel and express.
I hope this helps someone out there. Until tomorrow.
Blessings to all.
Matthew